Watching...not stalking

Time would go bye and i would see no sign of the children. It seems as if they only come out during the summer. Even though the boy tried to sneak into my home, everyone deserves a second chance. I remember back in the day when I wished to be loved. But that was long ago, before I killed my father.

Presents Of Love

I have learned to coincide with the enemy, in other words Scout, Jem, and Dill. Therefor, I have been giving them presents as a token of my appreciation. I have left simple, nice, harmful gifts for the children. First I gave them two pieces of chewing gum. Then, after i saw that they enjoyed the gifts, i put in two dolls that resembled them. I could start to tell that we are starting to bond. However, i have seen much of the boy and little of the girl. I hope that we will be close friends in the near future.

Nervousness Overtakes

My palms dripped with sweat as I hid behind the door. The corner of Jems room is not exactly the place where you may find a man like me. Scout, Heck Tate, and Atticus spotted me. I was scared out of my mind and didnt know why to do. Then, all of a sudden, I saw a smile on Scouts face so I smiled back. However, I was still too nervous to speak. Scout walked me back to my house and I felt loved. It was nice to finaly make a connection to someone. I finaly have a friend to look forward to seeing.

Coming Out

After the dramatic night of killing Bob Ewell, I feel like i finally belong in this world. I am not sure whether it is because I came out of my house or because i have finaly found a love in this world. Scout is the nicest little girl that I have ever met and I am excited to interact with her in the future. Even though I did not meet Jem, he looks like a nice young fella as well. Other than the day I killed my father, I have never been more nervous to meet new people.

What have I done?

It was a dark, creepy night. I watched it all, keeping my distance so I wouldnt get hurt. I knew Bob Ewell was out for revenge after Atticus embaressed him in the court room. It was, however, a surprise that he would go after his children. I spoted Bob when he abused Scout and Jem. He took Jem and I could not stand to just watch. I jumped out to save him before it was too late. It was hectic and at the heat of the moment I had to stab Bob with the scissors. I carried Jem back to the house and put him in his room. Sitting in the dark corner of his room, I waited as the doctor examened him. After hearing that he was okay, I put my face down in my arms and sighed. A voice called "Hey Boo," and I looked up and there stood Scout. It was very nice to finally comunicate with a "friend." The police man is a good friend with Atticus and has agreed to say that Bob Ewell fell on the scissors and stabbed himself. I am lucky that I got off easy this time.

Time Passing

Another summer has passed by and the children of the neighborhood are still creating chaos. However, over time I have learned to be-friend them. I am intrested to see how they will respond to me in the near future. No more do I want to be an outcast to this society. I feel like ever since my father has died and my brother, Nathan, took over as guardian, that I have been locked up in a cage iscolted from the rest of the world. I am hearing stories abourt how Tom Robinson is being accused of raping a white women. It is clear that he did not do it, but because of the racism in the world, justice is not always served the right way. That is part of reason why i do not go out. African-Americans do not get the same rights when it comes to the state of law.

Getting Through

I feel as if im beginning to get through to the children. Last night there was a fire at Miss Maudie's house. I watched as the childrens tears fell from their eyes, like raindrops from the sky. They were hurt, not physically, but mentally. They needed support so i decided to try to help out. Being careful not to scare the young ones, I placed a blanket over scout. I dont think he knew it was me but it was nice to help her out anyways. I placed presents in the tree but i recieved no more than dirty looks from them. Maybe they just have to be less shy or just "grow up."